Using energy to clear fear

Recently, I found myself consumed by fear. About a week ago, something at work triggered a familiar pattern—one I’ve experienced many times over the years. I won’t go into the details, but the pattern repeats in a similar way.

My usual response is fear-based. I go into self-protection mode, panic a little, and then start looking for a new job.

Using ChatGPT for brainstorming

This time, I decided to put everything into ChatGPT. I’m aware that there are risks in using ChatGPT as a substitute for therapy, but as I added more context and detail, the analysis shifted in a way that gave me a genuine moment of insight.

The recurring work pattern I experience tends to involve a specific personality type. I am the polar opposite of this personality, and people with this profile often seek advancement into leadership roles. I already knew this on some level, but ChatGPT went a step further—it shared data about industries where this personality type is less dominant in senior leadership.

What stood out immediately was that I’d experienced more success and far greater job satisfaction in the industries where this personality was les dominant in senior leadership roles.

The realization was simple but powerful: I am not the problem. Personality opposition is natural. My challenge isn’t that I’m difficult or flawed—it’s that certain environments are fundamentally misaligned with who I am. When I asked ChatGPT how best to handle the situation, it confirmed what I was already doing. Its final recommendation was to seek work in environments where the personality mix is a better fit, even offering examples of industries with more balanced leadership styles.

What this gave me was clarity. I carry far too much personal blame for workplace dynamics and perceived failure. In reality, success in these situations is unlikely—not because of incompetence, but because of personality incompatibility.

Using meditation to help heal the fear

With that understanding, I began to meditate.

I revisited past jobs where everything felt fluid—where I fit naturally and didn’t live in a constant state of fear. Then I reflected on the jobs where fear was ever-present, where I felt on edge and out of place. Rather than analyzing, I focused on feeling the difference.

I noticed where the fear lived in my body. Fear sits in my root chakra. I also became aware of a strange sensation around my head, particularly at the crown. I decided not to label or analyze—to stay out of my head and work directly with the sensations.

Instead, I used an energy-healing exercise I learned from Jeffrey Allen, adapted from one he teachings at an event.

I entered a meditative state and created an energy ball between my hands. I imagined a shaft of light flowing from the universe, down through my head and spine, into my arms, and into the energy ball. I also focused on the fear in my root chakra, slowly building the energy between my hands as if forming a snowball. Then I placed the energy over my root chakra and allowed the energy to heal the fear.

After several minutes, I moved the energy ball through each chakra. When I reached the crown chakra, I felt a distinct tingling sensation. I spent extra time directing energy to my crown and the surrounding areas of my head.

As Jeffrey says, the energy heals. Alongside the tension and knotting in my root chakra, there’s clearly something happening around my crown. I don’t need to know exactly what it is—I’ll continue to heal it using this technique.

Feeling rather than thinking

You don’t need to name the issue. You only need to identify where it lives. The energy does the rest.

I’ve repeated this exercise several times now, and the fear and panic no longer have the same grip they did just a week ago.